Unbearable Agony: A Personal Fight With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical records propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are handled with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Joseph Miller
Joseph Miller

A philosopher and writer who explores the intersections of luck, psychology, and human experience through engaging narratives.